I'm facing some financial decisions that cause me some fear and anxiety. It's nothing bad, it's just having to act like a grown-up and deal with adult things, including money. Turns out, dealing with money issues causes me discomfort. I've realized that I have some guilt and some fear and some shame all rolled up into my money issues. Lordy, am I a mess or what? No, I'm not a mess really. I'm finally seeing, feeling and attempting to deal with some of my "stuff" and sometimes it's not the most fun thing in the world, but it's so very necessary. The rewards are enormous. So I've just got to pull up my big-girl britches and get it done.
So have I been doing all my other really good self-care practices that I KNOW help me deal with stressors from a better place? NO. Have I been meditating? NO. Have I been practicing yoga? NO. I have I even taken a few minutes to practice some deep breathing? NO. I don't know why I let these things slip when I have proven to myself over and over again how much better I feel when I'm better able to stay in the present moment and not wander all over creation with my worried thoughts. Keeping my focus small lets me live a big life. It's a million little pieces that keep the big picture together.
I got a wonderful night's rest and do feel much better today. I've got a few financial tasks (see above) to take care of today and then I need to just let this go. I cannot control the outcome and worrying about it won't change a thing. I'll do my best and that will just have to be good enough. Let it go. Let it be.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Keep your focus.