I can do hard things. Dana tells us/me this often. I really am so fearful. It's time to break all of this down to get a better understanding. I'm an avoider. I avoid unpleasantness whenever possible. I am afraid. I am really afraid of me. I am afraid of unleashing some sort of uncontrollable rage machine. I am afraid of being taken advantage of. I am really afraid of being out of control.
Today I did hard/unpleasant/difficult things. I:
1. went to a kick-ass spin class at lunch when I really wanted to just walk on the treadmill and watch HGTV.
2. went to a "get your financial/insurance/medical poa etc. stuff together" seminar today. This is the year I get all my arrangements made. I care too much to leave things in disarray - not that I plan on going anywhere soon.
and for the big finale
3. approached my Mom yet again on the disposition of our property in WA, settling my Dad's estate (he's been dead for 38 years) and making her wishes known.
It may be time for an adult beverage. What thing did you face down today?