It's time to hit the reset button. My focus wandered too far. I've been conjuring up stuff and imagining this scenario and that scenario and awfulizing all of them.
I came to realize this while in yoga practice today. I need to keep my focus pretty tight and let whatever else happens around me, happen. As Karen said in a recent post, nothing good really happens if I force it - or somesuch sage advice. I need to remember that.
I've resigned (at least for a while) my self-appointed job as wedding/engagement party/reception(s) coordinator. Pebbles said she doesn't want an engagement party and while they want a reception, they'll worry about that in the spring. Since his family and the majority of my family are tee-totallers, it looks like the reception will be in two phases - the family friendly variety to be followed later by a cocktail reception. And I just have to let all of this go. I'll help when asked and I'll write checks as I feel appropriate for me.
Now I just have to be able to fit into the mother-of-the-bride swimsuit!
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Narrow your focus.
braving the scale TOMORROW!