Here's a picture of the hallway outside The Closet. I think all the units on this row are filled, save the one beside me. I promise to take and post some pictures of the interior when I get it done. It's pretty close. I've got a couple of spots that need some attention, but other than a couple of throw pillows, I think I'm done for now. The finishing touches, the personal touches will come to me. I don't have to go looking for them.
One of the (obvious) things that has occurred to me recently is that I, 1. have pretty much spent a lifetime of putting other people's needs and wishes ahead of my own and 2. I have a habit of denying myself anything that costs money (save travel). These two things became obvious based upon a couple of occasions. The first one had me in Marshall's, carrying around a $12.99 frying pan trying to decide if I should spend the money on it. I carried that damn thing around the store for twenty minutes before putting it down and leaving empty handed. I decided that I really didn't "need" it. And while that my technically be true, I have a one-egg sized frying pan, it's certainly not going to serve my needs for any length of time. The second incident is even more telling. I was sitting in The Closet in my sweats, with socks and slippers and a lap robe and I was still cold. I sat there and was uncomfortable but was unwilling to turn up the heat because how expensive would the electric bill be? Honest to god - it's a 500ish square foot place. How expensive could it possibly be?
This got me to thinking that for a lifetime, I denied myself things and even comfort because of someone else's needs, dysfunction, or wants. Now I do think that frugality and thrift ARE virtues, but I can let up a little. I know that much of this is a reaction to the upbringing by a compulsive shopper, being married to a spendthrift and being under mountains of debt for so long. But I can afford a little extra bump in the thermostat and a $12.99 frying pan. It's all in the mindset and getting comfortable - finding the balance.
ETA: I did recognize the fact that I was being silly and turned up the stinking heat...and I did buy myself a whole new set of pots and pans. I was just paralyzed for a little while ;-)
I'm certainly not advocating extravagance as a lifestyle, but a little self-care and allowing myself to think of myself, and myself only, is okay.
Great workout this morning. There were actually two other people in the workout room this morning! Looks like The Closet is getting more neighbors. I did have the distinct pleasure of watching the beginning of Sleepless In Seattle. It made me smile. I would have been singing along with Satchmo during the opening credits, but I wasn't alone in my workout.
I've taken to sleeping in my sports bra at night - it makes getting out of bed and getting dressed for the workout less chilly. And yes, I'm the female equivalent of a never-nude. Plus, I do need to learn how to program my thermostat to kick up the temperature at getting-up time.
I'm scheduled for this workout today: TNT (Tone-N-Tighten) – This is the ultimate resistance training workout. It will utilize dumbbells, body bars, tubing, and bands for a full body burn. I'm going, but I plan to take it really easy. I do not want an injury.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Be selfish if you need to be.