Did you remember to wear your big girl pants today? If not, I'd go home and change. :)
Repeat after me. Money and emotions do not mix. You are no longer in the financial situations you once were. Let your childhood and marriage financial woes go. You have the means to buy and maintain a home. This is not a crisis, just an exercise in money organization and management. You deserve a home that makes you happy and feels safe. A home is a secure investment in your future. Yes, the process is daunting but you have the support of many people and are employing people to work on your behalf to achieve this goal with you and for you.
I love you and am proud that you are my mother and face your fears head on (with or without tears) to achieve a better life.
Obviously today has been a whirlwind. The house was better on the inside than on the outside. Looked better in person than it did in pictures. I decided to put in an offer. And away we go with all the other stuff - mortgages, negotiations, inspections, stress and tears. We'll see what happens. And I still have to tell Bick, but I just can't do it today.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. I can do hard things - tm Dana - even if I do them with tears running down my face.