Long, rough day at work yesterday which found me at the grocery store at about 8:30 pm with a short shopping list that included a different brand of toilet paper! Goodness sakes, that Scott stuff was like construction paper. I bet I'll pay more attention next time.
I did find a solution to my "bread" problem. Joseph's Flax, Oat and Whole Grain pitas. 60 calories a pita and they only come 6 to a package. I had one last night and it served it's purpose - something different and sort of sandwichy, but not so good that I'm going to eat the whole package. I grilled 4 ounces of steak, cut up some lettuce, tomatoes, onions, feta cheese and a splash of oil and vinegar. Very good.
I got another call from Mom while I was at the grocery store. An uncle has been hospitalized in pretty serious condition - she's quite upset about it, naturally. But she and I have very different views about end-of-life care. Of course, yesterday was not the time to have that discussion. As a matter of fact, there is no time to have that discussion - it's just not somewhere that we can go. And that wasn't even the point.
I was fortunate enough to see that she is just scared. Scared for him and scared for her. I need to keep in mind that most of the time, she's not doing anything TO me. She's just behaving as she has always behaved. My reaction is what I do to myself.
One of the big lessons that I hope I've forever learned since moving to The Closet is that life is really complicated, but it is possible to still find joy, peace and happiness among chaos, fear and uncertainty. Yes, crap happens, and I could choose to concentrate on that, but I could also choose to focus on other things and not stay wallowing in situations that I probably have no control over anyway. So what's the use? I by grabbing a little peace, perspective and serenity, I can recognize more opportunities for more with each passing situation.
The second point of the conversation was more about house repairs. Apparently now there is a leak somewhere in the kitchen (or has been), as the floor is bubbling up. For those new to the game, Reata South is a mobile home in a rural area on some acreage where I lived for 20 years. My Mom and sister now live there. So this particular problem has now bubbled up to the top of the priority list. I'll try to get out there and see if I can figure out what caused it.
Today promises to be difficult, as I got about two and half hours of sleep and a lot came down yesterday, but I shall concentrate on things minute by minute and not allow myself to get overwhelmed or anxious. One thing at a time, one minute at a time.
I am so looking forward to attending a concert tonight with friends and going for an early morning bike ride with my kiddos.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Find a way to gain a different perspective.