Friday, September 17, 2010
Things here at Chez Menopause are a bit wonkier than usual. This week, I've been doing a fierce battle with The Change and I fear it may be winning this time. I've had night sweats for years and have pretty much learned to deal, but this past week has brought a new wrinkle (ha!) to the Throwdown. My history has been that if I'm upright, I'm freezing cold, and if I'm horizontal, I'm too damn hot. This week has brought an infuriating mixture of the two - cold sweats. I'm both too hot and too cold at the same damn time. I've tried reading, meditating, breathing deeply, crossword puzzles, more fans and less fans, increasing the thermostat and lowering the thermostat, more blankets and less blankets, more clothes and less clothes, forays in the middle of the night for hot beverages and cold beverages and nothing is helping. I've resorted to popping an A a night or two. Doesn't even phase it and just leaves me feeling even more groggy in the morning. Suffice it to say, I'm not firing on all eight cylinders these days.
I had a high-stress afternoon at work that involved auditors, me and near-panic and I decided my best strategy after work was to "first, do no harm", so I took myself to a meeting - just to sit and listen. That worked, but it didn't make me much smarter, as I went to the grocery story afterwards "to pick up a few things" and a very few things it was. I staggered out of bed this morning to prepare my food for the day and wondered what the hell I'd been thinking in the grocery store. Evidently, I bought some Flat Out Bread and two very small zucchini.
I keep the grocery inventory here in The Closet pretty lean. This is mostly by design - it keeps me from having too much stuff around in case I get an attack of the "hominy oatcakes" and it keeps my walking or riding to the store for most of my day-to-day supplies. I'd let those supplies run very thin. So even with the influx of squash and cardboard bread, my options for today were meager.
So the menu for today is: fish tacos made with grated zucchini and pacific cod tacos, topped with pesto, lemon zest and some queso blanco. And that includes breakfast.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Improvise.
*Baja Oklahoma popped into my mind somewhere around 3:30am. I was wishing I could re-read it, as it's one of my favorite books, but it disappeared a few years ago. I would not have decluttered this book away, as I've read it bunches of times (along with Heartburn by Nora Ephron). I'm now on a quest to replace this tome as it has brought me great pleasure in the past. Used book stores, here I come.
What books do you read and re-read?
**PPSS I figured out my camera timer, so I'll post some bedraggled pictures of the dress that I took after returning home from the "grocery" HA! store last night. Watch this space.