Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Wednesday White Out
I've been dreading today - assuming my usual defensive stance. As I was drinking my coffee and journaling this morning, it occurred to me that I could change how I choose to view today. Yes, I am anxious about the contractor meeting because of the unknowns. But am I willing to believe that things will work themselves out?
Haven't things worked out so far? Can I exercise that much faith? Must I turn everything into a BFD? No, I don't have to let fear and anxiety rule the day. The contractor may choose not to take the job and if that is the case, that's his privilege. It's not reflection on me. I don't have to take it personally. I might be disappointed, but I can choose to believe that things work themselves out.
I can also choose to believe that the contractor WANTS to work with me, wants to make me happy, wants to line up the work and that it will be up to us to work out time and budget issues to both our satisfaction. This is a puzzle to be solved, not a battle to be won. Easy on up, Roxie. Take a breath - everything will work out. The only question, the only thing to be determined is when. So now that I know it will all be okay, I can calm the hell down and be present for the process.
Last night's dance class was fun, but with nothing new to report. "Things" were staid and calm. The pre-dance party was held at a local restaurant, where I ordered the soup - thinking it was more of a broth-based tortilla soup. Turned out to be much more chili-like -so yet another evening of too-heavy-dining prior to all the salsa-ing.
And after getting to work, I also realized I'm wearing white after Labor Day. I have decided not to care - when it's still over 95 degrees, those rules don't apply.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Chill out.