I am guilty of tamping down joy. In the past, I haven't allowed myself to get excited about things because, well, they might not come to pass and then I'd, 1. be disappointed and 2. look stupid. And I don't really know which of those two factors was the most powerful in this situation. I grew up with the belief in "not jinxing" something. That if I really wanted something or really was looking forward to something, that acknowledging that fact would somehow cause it not to happen. I believed that the world was out to do me harm, not good. Of course, I don't really believe that now, but it has taken a long time to realize that I still tamp down my joy.
So instead of thinking about all the things that could go wrong, I am choosing to be excited. I am electing to be joyful about the new kitchen in Reata South. I am not going to think about what troubles might befall the project, but instead, I am going to hold the picture of what it will look like completed in my mind and be happy! I will not speak of the project with dread anymore. Hey! New, updated kitchen!
Tamping down joy is really just another symptom of trying to control/predict what new disaster was going to befall me so that I could prepare. Nothing like being a crap magnet - if that's what I would think about, then that's what I would get. If I go into a situation looking for the bad, then that is exactly what I am going to see. It doesn't make me smart, it doesn't make me a "realist", it just makes me less joyful.
Food and exercise were of the unhealthful variety. Today is a new day and I'm on holiday, so I'll get off my butt here in a few minutes and assess the outside environment. I just might be able to take Cha-Cha out for a spin.
On another note, if you haven't done so, go NOW, TODAY, ASAP to see The King's Speech.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Allow joy into your life.