I've had a bit of an issue getting back "on track". And it's not like I've been on some food bender over the holidays, but I have over-indulged on those things that don't make their way into my regular way of eating. And while I had every good intention of getting back in the groove on Monday, a combination of being exhausted and an unfortunate trip through Food Pusher Alley (the office kitchen) brought me face to face with homemade peanut brittle. Not a pretty sight.
So yesterday was a reboot day for me. And I'm making note of the things I do and the things I don't do to nudge myself into my life of good clean living.
Getting enough sleep is job one. When I am tired, I am susceptible to all sorts of whims. I'm also fighting biology. My body is looking for a quick energy boost to power me throughout the day.
I don't restrict. I have a history of a diordered relationship with food. When I try to restrict or "make up for" less-than-stellar choices, it usually always backfires. Introducing perfectionism never helped me. And while I don't restrict the quantity of food, I will make choices to eat good clean protein and plenty of it. I tell myself I can have as much as I want. Last night I had two grilled chicken breasts. Good clean protein sources help me back on the straight and narrow.
I don't inflict. There's a temptation for me to "get back to the gym" to try to make up for my behavior or in my case, punish myself. I no longer inflict punishment in the form of excessive exercise. While other people practice intuitive eating, I practice intuitive exercise. My body will crave exercise and I will give it what it wants. I always want to view exercise as an act of lovingkindness because I am worth taking care of and not as a way of "whipping myself into shape". Yes I enjoy exercise, I enjoy being fit and healthy, but if I do too much, then I might get to the place where I place my value on my accomplishments, not on who I am. I don't want to get into a performance based system to determine self-worth. This one is a pretty slippery slope, to be sure.
So yesterday I got lots of rest, a bit of exercise and some good clean eating with a large measure of protein and today I feel much better, stronger and a bit more back to normal. I didn't wake up with a food hangover or any regrets about yesterday's behaviors - what a great way to start a day.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Find your way back.