I enjoyed my company last night, but certainly wish I could crawl back into bed this morning. Today feels like a great day for a mental health day, but my schedule is already too packed to readjust it. I'm scheduled to go to Dallas for dinner with the kids tonight and even that sounds like a beating right now. But I am not my feelings. My feelings are not truths.
So I will get on with it this morning. I'll spend a bit of extra time in preparing myself for the day - mentally, physically and spiritually - and go forth with the intention of being gentle with myself and all those around me.
The house versus condo? Which house? Which condo? Do I act now? Do I wait? What if I make the wrong decision? All of these thoughts are on continuous loop in my head and last night's discussion only added fuel to the fire - actually it did more to confirm the condo decision. My guests had carefully tracked their housing versus renting expenses and established their breakeven point. For them, given the house maintenance issues/work required, it was worth even a premium to rent. I think a condo would mitigate that somewhat.
Gah! But I also worry that I will make a decision just to make this loop stop. Whatever it is, I need to work to set aside my obsessive thoughts and worry. Worry is like sitting in a rocking chair, rocking hard. It expends energy, but one doesn't get very far. I need to get a little peace about this.
Food and exercise are pure crap as of yesterday and I have a luncheon that is a must attend today. I shall try to make the best of it.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Know when to protect yourself.