* This is a series of posts I'm calling my Attagirl Portfolio. Using this poster (available @ www.allposters.com) as my inspiration, I am creating a series of life-enriching (not empowering, heh!) posts. These are to be hauled out and re-read in case of emergency when the only other option appears to be the liberal application of apple fritters directly to my ass.
I am capable. We are all capable of much more than we've ever dreamed. I know that is true for me. The issue for me sometimes is that I get overwhelmed. And when I get overwhelmed, I tend to just shutdown and become capable of very little. To combat the tendency to be overwhelmed, I need to take things in little bitty bits. If I focus on the next little thing, then pretty soon, I can turn around and see that I can be capable of a lot. I am capable.
Thank you all for the kind comments and emails. I really am doing okay right now. I know that I will be on a bit of a roller coaster for a while, but even over the last week, I've managed to smile a good deal and have some wonderful times and experiences. I've got things to look forward to - including three more house visits on Thursday. I've expanded my search to a different part of town where I've located some little gems in my price range. I will be okay. I AM okay.
This event, while sad, hasn't come close to knocking me down or out. And I don't mean that in an "I Will Survive" disco-anthem militant way. Nope, this is just a quiet knowing. When I feel sad, I will feel it and when I don't, well, then I'll enjoy that time as well.
Food has been a little bit salty as of late but I've been consistent with the exercise. Today is a lunchtime workout and maybe a little bike ride, if this wind dies down. It was blowing so hard on Sunday while I was riding that at times it just stopped all forward momentum.
There was a thunderstorm that blew through yesterday morning about 5 am that rattled the windows so hard that my bedroom curtains and curtain rod flew off and into the living area! Now that is no way to start a day. I'm hoping for something a little calmer.
And speaking of houses, I did have a talk with my realtor yesterday and discussed how I would like interactions between us to be handled as we move forward to view other properties. I was able (I hope) to be clear about my expectations without being aggressive, which is my fall-back position if frustrated. Feel pretty good about that, too. I am still in no hurry on the house thing. While I do love some of the houses in this new area, the trails aren't quite as accessible as I would like them to be. But the area warrants the research.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Capability builds confidence.