Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Well, that was a bust. Turns out, rather than become more outgoing, I isolated even more. So with just a bit of de huevo en la cara, I am making another run at this.
As the new year is upon us, I always think of my friend Meg and her practice of setting an intention, rather than a resolution. I've been thinking about that, and my goal or intention of what I'd like to bring into my life is still the same - I want to increase my human contact and more importantly, increase my comfort with social interaction and to be authentic when doing so. To this day, I'd rather address a room of 400 than pick up the phone and call even the closest of friends. Calling someone just for the sake of calling, without a legitimate reason makes me anxious, it makes me nervous and it makes me feel vulnerable and vaguely ashamed. I pretty much understand the psychology behind it and now it's time to get on with a plan. Starting now, and through 2012, I will make one phone call each day. And no, calling someone and ask if their refrigerator is running doesn't count. And I will be accountable for it here.
This idea sprang from one of my blogging friends and heroes - Dana, who picked up her phone and called me last week. We had a wonderful conversation (at least I thought so) and it got me to asking myself "Could I do that?" just call like that. It would take a lot for me to do it, but I do feel that I need to do this a bunch in order to normalize the action and behavior for me. I am hoping that with time and repetition that it does get easier.
So there it is. Same goal, new strategy. I'll report back tomorrow on how it goes.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Reach out.