Friday, January 13, 2012
This says what I am and where I am so much more eloquently than I can. In writing this blog, the difference between authenticity and transparency has tripped me up more than once.
I have noticed this shift in me - I believe that I am living more true to the authentic plumb line, but with less transparency. And I believe that last part is a good thing, on the whole. As a recovering over-zealous-discloser, I am moving from needing/wanting validation for every move I make - that's a big change for me. I'm giving things less "traction" in my life. I don't retell stories as much. People in my life are still doing the same old stuff, but I suffer less if I don't their behavior purchase in my life. In my past, if someone asked me a question, no matter how inappropriate, I would always provide an answer, no matter how inappropriate. These days, I've placed some boundaries around me and around other people. I still struggle with how to enforce those boundaries gracefully, but they are being enforced.
Pebbles said something very touching to me the other night. She was asking me about my improv class and I was telling her about it and she said, "You are not the same person you were when I was 18. I think you have changed more in the last ten years than I have. I couldn't have imagined you then as you are now." So when it comes to measuring progress, there are always yardsticks available. Even when the progress is slow, there is progress.
Dinner last night was yummy. A little too much cream brulee, however. I may still be in a sugar coma.
Phone-A-Friend - 0. Work function went until too late to call. I'll do better tomorrow.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Progress, not perfection