Sunday, February 19, 2012
Yesterday was a good day. Day 1: Critical self-care goal accomplished! Did not dip into the 6 bags of candy that I have in my car. I'm going to get rid of that today. I was asked to volunteer to help provide candy for the hospitality suite for a local non-profit conference this weekend and the coordinator never got back to me on the pickup - even after me calling her. So while it has been calling my name, it didn't win. At least not yesterday. I will be taking it to the public candy bowl at work TODAY, as I have to drop off a cake for a celebration tomorrow. Another opportunity for restraint :-).
The dinner party last night was interesting. Turns out, I only knew the host. I recognized several of the other people there, but only by sight - I didn't know them. They were all quite nice, but it wasn't what I was expecting. My friend who knows the host better than I do was also invited, but had other obligations. I could have stayed home, I suppose, but that would go against my goal of being more social. I do (think I) know that I was invited only because I was standing with my friend when the host invited her - but I decided to let the host be responsible for inviting me and go! I know that doesn't make much sense - it's just a bit of me giving up trying to read other people's mind and motives. I got a personal invitation and a follow up phone call, so I went. Period.
It was nice - and I got the opportunity to see Midnight in Paris yet again. It was just as delightful the second time around. I did make the decision to leave soon after the movie and made what I hope were the appropriate good-byes. I really need to take an etiquette course, as I was taught nothing growing up. I'm sure I commit social blunders all over the place. Anyway, I did my best and I came home.
At home, I was doing my best to quell my tendency to second guess everything that I said and had done - so I decided a nice cup of decaf would divert my attention. I had just purchased the fully leaded and unleaded version of Slater's fancy-pants coffee, so I brewed up a pot. And enjoyed it. And realized it was the fully-leaded variety. Sigh.
So, not much sleep for me last night. I got up about 3:30 am and piddle around for an hour or so and then went back to bed for a while. I'm feeling okay now, but trying to talk myself OUT of going to meditation. It remains to be seen how that turns out.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Get the lead out.