|Hammer: to ride fast in big gears|
Fitness does disappear quickly - between the extra ten that I'm packing around and the dropped level of my activity in the recent months, I was astounded at how tough today was. And not particularly enjoyable. Oh well. I hope to pick up some fitness in spin classes and that it will go better next time.
I'm not going to beat myself up over the weight gain and the fitness loss over the last 18 months. I've had a lot of other stuff going on in my life - the breakup, the house purchase and getting settled in here. I've been knitting together a new life and grieving the loss of the old one. And my fitness has suffered. I haven't been motivated - and I don't know that I am right now. I do know that I'm enjoying my spin classes and I'm looking forward to some group rides and I have got a couple of those coming up pretty soon.
And to tell on myself: after Pebbles left last night, I decided that I desperately needed some ice cream. So I got in the car to go get some. There was too much of a line at the closest DQ, so I started to another supplier. I somehow managed to talk myself down from that ledge and drove home empty-handed. I parked in front of my house, only to remember that I'd forgotten to plug in my cell phone to my car charger (outlet charger is dead). So in order to charge up the battery in the car phone, I decided to drive FARTHER away to get ice cream, and so I headed out yet again. Got well away from the house, enroute to pick up some Ben and Jerry's when I was able to talk myself down for the second time in one night. So I drove home, again, without the ice cream. And just left my cell phone plugged into the car charger.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.