|Not actually Inez, but it's her twin sister|
I don't know why this makes me so nervous - maybe a throwback to gym class or something. There is just so much that I don't know and that not knowing makes me really anxious. I'm really moving into self-doubt here - which is not my usual place when taking on a new activity. Hmmm. This is not like a group exercise class where I can easily adjust my pace/effort to satisfy my own need "not to hate every f*n second" of whatever I am doing. And to quote, well, me "I'm not getting a grade or paid for this, so I'll do it exactly as it pleases me" just doesn't seem to fit riding a bike when everyone will actually see how good/fast/whatever I am. I just need to remember to be true to myself and my abilities. I do not have to prove anything to anyone. I am worthy and I AM a cyclist if I choose to call myself one.
I'm heading out for Nashville in the morning, so I may be scarce or I may camp all over the internets - just depends on how the conference goes. It is interesting that they offer yoga classes every morning. I've never been to a conference that did that - I've signed up for that and am looking forward to it. Just found out this a.m. that two of my favorite cross-state colleagues will not be attending - for a very scary reason - one was just diagnosed and began treatment for youterin big C. Downer news, for sure.
I've ordered printed invitations for the Garden Party, so now I need to put my back where my money is. I've backed myself into a corner here - which is how I pretty much work the best - under a bit of pressure - so now I've got a focus for getting my yard work done - in little increments of time - 15 minutes of pruning here, 30 minutes of weeding there - and by end-of-Aprilish, all will be ready to go. Oh, and the guest list has doubled - in for a penny, in a for a pound - the yard, etc will need to be as clean and pretty for 20 as it would for 40. All I need is some more finger sandwiches. Might as well go big or stay home!
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Stretch and stretch some more.