year. I want to stay as present as possible, as relaxed as possibly, in both mind and body. Since I've become aware of the physical tenseness that I seem to carry in my body so much of the time - I'm working to change that. And to improve my posture - I've spent 30 plus years staring at a computer screen, slouching. I need to find a way, a chair, a device, a something to gently straighten me up and get me ergonomically correct.
And when I drive, I find my chin getting closer and closer to the steering wheel, which I hold on to with some sort of death grip. It's time to move my shoulders back and get my head and neck in alignment with my spine. And speaking of shoulders, I need to move them down and back, out of my ears and back, but not pulled back in that goose-stepping way, but just gently back and where I need to be to bring relaxation to bear.
I am finding myself in obsessing mode. Again? Still? I can't seem to hit on the right method to put a stop to that mental exercise-in-futility, so I'll keep looking for ways to stop and distract - without the distraction becoming the next problem to solve.
I'll keep looking for the word, the work and the way.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Find a way.