It dawned on me yesterday that when I'm "in the numbers", then I'm focusing on the problem and not the solution. I read Mr. SponsorPants post yesterday about the solution to stuck is still. For me, this means not trying to be the best dieter in the history of ever (perfectionist tendencies) but to get my head in the right place and my butt will eventually follow. While I do need exercise and activity, I need to come to those things from the right head space. And getting the right headspace starts with picking up a pen and a journal, not necessarily a dumbbell. This is all a mental game for me, and my emotions, or more accurately, my lack of taking the time to process those emotions, show up on the scale. Yes, I do believe there is my physiological stuff at work, but there's a lot more headstuff happening, too. And I've been skipping the important stuff, the essential stuff and just arranging the deck chairs on the Titanic.
No, I'm not going down - not even close, but I have stopped doing, stopped taking the time, stopped moving at a S.I.T pace, which keeps me grounded in the moment and just got busy. And busy ain't my truth - I don't need to do more, I need to do less. Less at a slower, more deliberate pace. I need to be IN my body and not out in my head somewhere a million miles away.
I do trust this process. But I need to remember it is a process - a complete process of mind, body and spirit. And I don't get a solution if I ignore any one of those. I've developed sharp, craggy points that will grab a hold of anything that comes my way - including weight. It's time to smooth off those jagged little edges and let things just flow over and around me.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Go with the flow.