Wednesday, September 11, 2013
One of the things that was highlighted to me (love that, Carla) is my strong avoidance behaviors. As an example, I'll write these big long-assed to-do lists, and they avoid doing the most important thing on them! And I'll continue to avoid/procrastinate doing the whatevers and over time, I expend so much negative energy avoiding whatever it is that it makes no sense whatsoever. I mean every time I would see something on my "List" that I hadn't accomplished, I'd feel just a pinch of guilt and I'd shoot a little poisoned arrow my way. So these days, I've been asking myself each and every day, "What do I least want to do today? What am I avoiding most?" and I try to go ahead and get that thing out of the way - or at least a little piece of it - and move forward, while letting go of the boat anchor of inaction that was weighing me down. Right now, the thing that I NEED to do and have been avoiding is changing the A/C filter. I can't do it right this second, as my crawling around the ladder and clanking around on that grate thingy would wake up Mom - but I can bring in the stepladder from the garage and set it close. One step at a time, right?
Today is a rest day from the morning gym run, so I spent some time trying to work in the yard this morning. Boy, I can sure tell that the days are getting shorter! It's still not light, so I didn't get much done outside of the garage. Today my plan is to take a circuit training class at lunch, followed by a walk with Valerie tonight at 8 - again, in the dark! I don't quite have my food planned out for the day, but I'll get that too.
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. One foot in front of the other. Repeat.