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This fall has felt like a new beginning for other areas, as well. I chose to end my relationship with Dave back in July. I'd known for quite sometime that it was what I needed to do but wanted to make sure it was the right thing, and not just me acting from a place of chaos, given the crazy year I'd had in 2013. I decided to give the decision a lot of time and thought, in addition to some help from a therapist to talk it all through.
I am practicing extreme self-care - making my life, health and good living my number one priority, and I've finally been able to budge the scale just a little. I've been logging steps, getting into the gym on a regular basis, walking with Valerie three mornings a week. That was a great change for us - I missed seeing her, but didn't want to just out for drinks or dinner, so I asked her to walk with me early in the morning before work and she agreed. And, she's stuck to it - says it starts her day off much better. Mine, too.
I've also been dating someone who Talia has been wanting me to go out with for three years. We've been out three times but he's not the right person. I have been very thoughtful about this, especially given Talia's high praise, but after careful thought, all I can think is what, after her knowing me for eight years, makes her think that he is "perfect". He is a nice man. He is polite, he is educated, he is comfortably off and has absolutely no personality that I can detect. None. Zilch. Nada. So I need to figure out how to get out of this without hurting any feelings. I don't believe his will be hurt and I hope Talia's won't be either. But just let me say "Does she not know me at all?"
Take good care of yourself. Be kind to others. Know yourself.